Wire Me
so many days
it is easy for me to crave to fade away into the haze
where the sun doesn’t shine
yet i know i cannot go back
to the places i used to tread
but what is ahead
is unknown and sometimes it’s hard to grow
yet i continue on
i close my eyes and remind myself i have to be strong
to fight and to hang on
i go to my keys and i remember to sing
i close my eyes and i look to the sky
i see heaven coming down through the clouds
it cuts through the fear and into my eyes
there i find myself in tears
dear God are you out here
do you see what is happening
i can have anything i want
but all the things i want aren’t good for me
sex
candy
drugs
wire me so i can be
free from insanity
that bleeds inside of me
my heart is too sensitive
to the murmur of the world
and no one
seems to care
i want to blow my mind
but i have done it so many times
i know the end result
nothing happens worthwhile
so i cry for awhile
and i get up and go on