- Present yourself in 20 words or less.
I am a visionary creator who uses technology to communicate my visions, dreams
and creations through various forms of expression from music visuals as well
as web creations and communities.
- Why do you think your story is worth telling?
It is about getting back up after falling, not to mention that to my knowledge
I am the only one of me on the internet or at least I was one of the first if
not the first people to really understand and utilize the capacity to translate
art through a digital media.
- Can you sumarize a day in your life in 15 sentences or less?
Wake up, drink a cup of tea, write in my personal journal. Then I say a prayer
before going to make music in the studio or going to a photoshoot. After that,
it is meetings with people with in the industry. Each day I try to the gym, to
run or o do yoga before heading back to working on either music, writing, my websites,
answering email or shooting video. It never stops. It is a whirlwind of
creation and work.
- Are you going to make it, are you making it or did you already made it?
Making it for me is to do what I love which I do everyday. I don't really care
what the world thinks. To some, I made it. To others, I am famous. To even others,
I am important. But to me, I am just me.
- Do you consider yourself an ambitious person? Do you think that's a quality
or a defect?
No. I don't watch tv. I don't play games with people's emotions in shallow relationships,
and I don't drink or do drugs, so that leaves a large amount of time and energy
to be productive. Most people have completely forgot that they can do something
beyond being a permanent fixture on the couch. We all have the ability to do limitless
things. We just often never try.
- Being a beautiful girl has obvious advantages, but it also has a stigma attached
to it, do you feel underestimated? Do you feel you have something to prove?
I don't feel I have anything to prove. I don't create to please or win the attention
of the world. I create because I love it.
- You're very active in many projects, music, modeling, your website changes constantly,
you write in your online journal daily and you're one of the most responsible
people I've met when it comes to answer your e-mail. Personally, I don't think
it's possible, how to you manage to do all that?
- Do you consider yourself a workaholic?
Thank you, I have someone who does the flash site, an awesome artist and a nice
guy from France named JD. Glenn from www.lodgerproductions.com does all my video
editing and watches over the site. As far as theblackbookproject.com, I
have two people, Whitney and Axel who oversee it. MentalSanctuary.com is
watched and maintained by JD as well. I have business manager and assistant, Rob,
who is amazing and who I couldn't live without. He takes care of all the
mail, bills, and paper work between me and places like BMI and others as well
as booking me and handling my schedule. I work from 8 am till 2am on a normal
day. I make art all day so it is hardly work.
The Work
- What are your current projects? What's Jillian Ann doing?
I am working on my second solo album which will be out this summer. I am working
on a musical collaboration that is very portishead/everything but the girl /moby
esque with this amazing artist and poet sage www.sexdrugsandsundayschool.com
and www.sagepoet.com. I am working on a new version of JillianAnn.com
which will be out in the next few months. I am running an artist collective and
community in New York ( www.mentalsanctuary.com) which is also a global portal
where I am putting the gathering call out to other artists, dreamers and creators
who want to see change and create. I also am working on www.theblackbookproject.com
which is a database for models and photographers, but, unlike most modeling portals,
we screen the photographers and make sure they are real. I am also working
on a live show for this summer which will be on the road. Currently I am working
with a film maker and we are finishing up the first feature film that I have done
called Alternative Model. I am shooting for fashion magazines and top photographers
when I can in New York and around the world. Currently, I am doing a lot of music
for films and tv as well. I just finished an hour and a half meditational CD which
will be on my website soon.
I am also working on a series of paintings for a gallery show. I am working on
a project called Zen Baby which will be a book as well as a section on the site.
It's all about things like sex, drugs and God. I am also working on a book about
the modeling industry.
Sage and I have a monthly night starting this month at a top club in New York
called Pianos where we will be hosting a night of music, poetry and art.
We have weekly meetings for Mental Sanctuary in New York which is a rapidly growing
and becoming quite a creative and beautiful group. There is more, but at
the moment that is what I have my teeth sunk into.
- I know this one will surprise some of the readers; approximately how many pictures
of yourself do you have available in your web site? by how many photographers?
At last count, about 4500. Taken by hundreds of photographers.
- Explain The Mental Sanctuary in 20 words or less. What projects are you developing
with that?
Mental Sanctuary is about gathering, educating, helping, empowering, and connecting
artists without strings attached.
- You have several guides to help people in different areas posted on your web
site, pitch them and explain them, I'll include the address.
There is the Modern Models Guide which is the truth about the industry. Considering
it was how I survived and lived for over seven years, it is written from experience
and tells the hard truths I learned. These articles are not candy,
They are not there to make you feel good or tell you it's a box of chocolates.
It's real and raw. The guide is at http://www.jillianann.com/MODELGUIDE.html
and it is a good read for anyone who is thinking of getting into the business.
I am working on this and will develop it into a book over time.
There is a guide on New York City which I will be adding to as well. This
has everything from spiritual places to gardens to vegan and vegitarian restrunts.
It's the places I go to and the things I do. This is at http://www.jillianann.com/nyc.html
There is the rape and sexual abuse section. I and many I know were raped or sexually
abused so this is a section on abuse and recovery as well as resources.
We are also working on creating a national directory of centers which offer free
counseling and therapy to rape and/or sexual abuse victims.
The For Humans section of my site has many things there that I thought people
would enjoy: CD-Junkie is at http://www.jillianann.com/cdjunkie.html
and it has
a list of hundreds of artists I listen to. I am a music junkie. Soon
it will be thousands because my collection is expanding. Most music on the radio
is boring, but this music is stuff I think is good and you may never hear it on
commercial radio.
Health and Diet Advice -- now one of the reasons I do everything I do is because
I rarely get sick. I also spent years trying to find the way to eat and feel really
good and I found it. I have done extensive research on nutrition and this section
shows some of the information I found http://www.jillianann.com/body1.html
and
http://www.jillianann.com/aDietThatWontKillbutwillHeal.htm
Everyone I know who is on the diet is very happy with it once they got over their
fear.
There are also essays on God and sex and so on. This shows what I have learned
and also I get people around me to write stuff as well. These can
be found at http://www.jillianann.com/essays.html Some of it heavy stuff,
so be aware.
About Milan is at http://www.jillianann.com/aboutmilan.html I was in Milan
modeling and this section contains an agency list as well as a bit about the city
-- its ups and downs and its ins and outs.
The Musician's Guide to the Internet -- Peter Spellman and Berkelee Press were
nice enough to let us digitize his book and this is a resource section for anyone
who is a musician and who uses the net. Peter Spellman's book and the resources
it are amazing. http://www.jillianann.com/PeterSpellmanMusicianResources.html
Sound and healing is a section on what I found about sound and healing
- Do you consider yourself an altruist / philanthropies?
I am aware of the state of the world. I am watching my generation sink fast and
I am just trying to stick out a digital hand.
- What's the best gift you've ever gotten from an online fan?
music and money :)
- Do you have a stalker yet?
Not really. And I am not looking for one either :)
- Do you consider you crave for attention? Is that a characteristic of performers
in general?
I don't really crave for attention. I just put my art and music out there to be
shared with everyone. I enjoy my solitude and in many ways try to hide from
the attention.
- I personally think you have a very good chance of becoming a star soon. Are
you prepared for it? How do you feel about it?
I am prepared which is why it hasn't happened. I believe that my work, my life,
is in divine hands and because of that, there are many things I had to learn and
understand before I went anywhere. Becoming a star is being put in a pressure
cooker. There is a reason so many kill themselves and/or end up in rehab. It's
hard. It's heavy. And it's intense. I am lucky I am around people who are
there and have been there who have been teaching me. It will be nice to
continue to grow. I am not into the whole game of the industry. I want to make
my art and work and create and use what I have to do all I can to help others.
I have an amazing team in place and also it would be nice to be able to hire a
few people to help out.
- If that happens people will become very interested in your life, do you plan
to keep the journal online?
Yes, because I want people to know the truth and that includes the good and bad.
The journal is my way of keeping my own press. People can say what they
want but my journals go back till I was a kid and it's all there. I will continue
because it is my way of keeping in control. The public can read it and form their
own opinons.
The Journal
- When and why did the journal started?
When I was a kid, no one understood me so I wrote in a journal. Then my friends
would read them and it helped them because they didn't feel alone.
- Do you consider yourself an exhibitionist?
I think people are afraid of themselves and there is no need to be. There is no
such thing as a secret, so why hide? Why cover up? Why be anything you're not?
- Has keeping an online journal, a public doorway to your life, caused you any
problem?
No, it has helped me because it keeps away those who lie and are two-faced and
brings to me those who are real or want to be and who seek truth. Agencies
and managers sometimes have problems with it, but that is a part of my art and
if they can't dig it, then I move on. I am at a point where I will not compromise
my creation to please others or the public. The journal also helps a lot
of people. People write me everyd ay to say that it inspires or helps them
with their own lives.
- You've has an online journal for years now, why do you think they have became
so popular lately?
Because I am all over the place -- magazines, the net, music, radio and so on.
Because I talk about everything I am not supposed to from sex, religion, drugs,
love, God, politics, art, healing and so on. Because it's real, and there is so
little of that.
Because people want to see inside, so why hide it?
Technology and communication
- I your journal you advice people to "unplug their kids", but most
of the work you do has to do with sitting in fron of the computer all day. Do
you consider you have a love/hate relationship with technology?
I hate computers, but I use them. Again I use them. They don't use me.
Ccomputers can be very productive, but trust me -- I wish I didn't have to sit
in front of them. Unplugging children is about what I consider to be the weapon
of mass destruction in America. At least which is the tv. Poor children
are brainwashed into materialism and co-dependent behavior before they get a chance
to know themselves.
- Even though some of your music is available to be downloaded or streamed in
your web site, I have do ask this. What's your position in the whole The Industry
Vs Digital music controversy? What about your label's position.
- Did the Internet, your web site, and having your songs available on line helped
you get a record deal?
I will be adding a very large amount of music soon to be streamed. Let's talk
truth. The major labels are raping artists. Because they spend far to much money
and have to. Then they rape the public by charging 16 dollars for a cd.
Here is how it works -- a major label wants you so they give you an advance (loan).
Then you make a record and use all that money which you owe back to them.
If the record doesn't sell half a million nowadays, you often get canned. So lets
see. You make a record and then you owe them money? Sounds a bit messed
up. Now, I don't think it is fair for them to take all the artists' money,
so my attitude is let them learn not to be so greedy and change the old ways.
It's outdated and there is a better way.
As far as piracy goes, my perspective is that if you could download a track for
50-99 cents, I think this is fair. If all or most of the money went to the
artists, I think it would be fair. This reality will soon be the new way.
It is happening now. Soon the p2p will be full of music, some free and some
you need to pay the artist for. I think it is fair to pay the artist as well as
the person who funded the music in this way. I don't think it's fair for artists
to make records, sell thousands and be starving while the CEOs are driving limos.
I have sat in the rooms with the RIAA, the FBI and the people who are the kings
of P2P. The reality is that no one is happy and we all want something that
is fair for the public, for the artists and for the labels. But we all have to
play nice which, when money is involved, isn't always easy. I got my record deal
because of the Internet. The head of my label (www.emperorpenguinrecordings.com)
is amazing. He is not normal and the label is all about supporting artists
and not raping them. He found me because of mp3.com which is now gone thanks to
Universal buying them and then shutting it down, which is sad. My label
is all about the artists, and its head, Wyatt Perko, is supportive of anything
that helps me. He is amazing and so is his label. They are very open and supportive.
Music
- I've been reading a lot about the music industry and the deals they give to
artist and it doesn't seem fair, no wonder the whole industry is crumbling. What's
your take on that?
I feel change has to come and it is coming and no it isn't fair and now the artists
don't need to deal with it or need it.
How's your record deal? Can you discuss that?
Amazing. My label is amazing. They are so cool and nice and care so much
and let me have complete creative freedom and are not abandoning me:) I
am working on my second record.
- Do you think what's happening with the music industry is good or bad for small
record labels? Is it a good time to be independent?
It is the perfect time for a small label and it is a great time to be independent.
It is the perfect time to be small because there is a new wave coming and if you
catch it now, you can fly.
- Do you download music?
I am onto next level stuff so no I don't.
- Why didn't you audition for American Idol?
Because I am an artist, not a singer. And I refuse to be packaged by a bunch
of people who only care about if I sell a million records. Not to mention the
fact that I don't qualify because I did release a CD.
- What do you think of the whole American Idol phenomenon? Do you like pop music?
I like Depeche Mode and U2. I don't like a lot of the stuff out there at the moment.
It's not real.
- Do you have formal musical education?
Some piano and voice lessons and that is all. I am learning more now than ever.
- Do you perform live? Do you have a band?
I will be with the next album. The band will be me, Sage and a bunch of computers.
- Tell us about Neverland and your pre nomination to the Grammies
Neverland was my debut solo album. I learned how to make music, making it so it
is like me being in musical kindergarten. It got really good reviews and is becoming
a cult classic. It is a bit off, a bit quirky, but it is real and from the soul.
It has done well on the radio and in reviews as well as out of thousands, it got
in the top few hundred CDs chosen by the Grammy people. Neverland is precious
because it is my first creation. It is a very chill, mellow and emotional record.
- What equipment did you use to make Neverland?
Coffee, keyboards, a voice, Sonar, and several plug ins out of hundreds as well
as Reason and Absynth.
- Who would you like to remix one of your tracks?
Paul Okenfold, Nick Warren, Goldie, Tricky
- Who would you like to direct one of your videos?
The person who does Bjork's. I cant remember his name. He also did stuff for Aphex
Twins.
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