This possession
Obsession
Realization
I will never live
Life for anything else
I wake up
To see you are
Me I am you
You the cursed muse
Who I adore
Yet you
Make me sleepless
Eat less
Want nothing
But to make
My fingers bleed
Because you
Fill me with
A million stories
And music is
Your language
Yet I was not
Dedicated as I could have
Been so now
I have to work
To slave
To obey
Your rules
To learn to train
To spend life
Serving your
Call
You call me in my sleep
When I am away
You fill my head
When I try to shut you
Off you
Wont listen
Then you haunt me
You play over
And over
And over
In my head
Till I find
A way
To release you
I die now for this
Cause to
Try to take what you
Give and communicate
Wasted time
In wasted ideal
Ways
When I should have been
Playing
Writing
Learning
But no I was living
Now I sit
I go over and over
You teach me'
You say
This and that
I dive into books
To know you
I want to know
Everything about you
You have made me hungry
Starved to understand you
Because I see you
Will never leave
And if Ignore you
My life seems to
Be destroyed
Funny how you work
When I am on the right
Path all is well
When I ignore you
Or try to not listen
Or work
You take away
Everything
Oh yes I have had it
Happen time and time again
Over and over
You fill me with beauty
And you fill me with hope
Fill me with stories
Fill me with dreams
You fill me
Then you say
This is what you must do
So you can make these dreams
Manifest into reality
The list is long
And I look at all the things
I must learn
I must practice
I must make my muscles and my mind understand
Your language
For I cannot speak for you
I still have yet to figure out
Why you landed inside of me
I am sure there are a million others
Who would like your presence
My muse
Yet you
Came here
Maybe it was because I
Was chasing you
From the first time'
I understood
What you could do
When a man or women or child
Gave up there life
To serve you
What you could leave
Behind
For eternity
You are inspiration
I am a channel
I am nothing more
Then that
So in order to do
The best work
I most lose
Myself
Great the largest challenge of all mankind
To not be stuck on themselves and live a life
All about me me me me me me
But I will and have taken the challenge
You always tell me when I am
Replacing you
Loudly
Screaming
At me
Till I remember you
Yes you
Then you say you need
To work on this
You point to my fingers
Yes those
You know what you