lyrics for NeverlAnd

Fragile:
By Jillian Ann

let myself fall

I used to live
in a state
of self induced sleep
always dying for the
next escape from my life
cause i was so afraid
of feeling all
i held inside, all i held inside

that i was afraid if it came out
it would break me apart

then one day
i learned couldent get away from myself
so i trying to run and looked inside
and i found

I wasent fragile
afterall
i wouldent break
if i let myself fall
i wasent fragile
afterall
and i wouldent break
if i let myself fall

let myself fall

slowly over time
i learned not to run
from what i felt inside
even though sometimes
i didnt want to face my fears
i found that the only thing
i really needed to fear
was if i let fear keep me from my life

so thats when i stoped trying to
run away
faced everything inside

i found i wasent fragile
afterall
that i wouldent break apart
if i let if i let if i let
myself fall
i wasent so fragile afterall
so i just let myself
fall

NeverEnough
By Jillian Ann

I grew uo hearing everyday
i was never enough
I wasent good enough
or smart enough or pretty enough
for there love

i tried to change to be
what they wanted to what they wanted me to be
but it didnt matter cause they
never really wanted me

that how i learned to say
i am who i am
if its not good enough
id rather walk aay
cause if your loves got a price tag
i dont want it anyway
cause i am who i am
and that will never change
if i am not good enough
i'd rather walk away
cause if your loves got a price tag
i dont want it anyway
cause i am who i am
and that will never change
if i 'm not good enough
i'll just walk away

i used to try to obey
to mold myself
i tried to live for everybody else
hoping someone would love me
but then i learned the hard way
that i couldent live for anybody else
cause if i did i lost myself
and they never stayed anyways
thats when i learned to say

i am who i am
and that will never change
if i am not good enough
i'll just walk away
i'll just walk away
cause if your loves got a price tag
and i dont want it anyway
i dont want it anyway
cause i am who i am and that will never change
if thats not good enough
i'll just walk away

MUTE
by Jillian ANn

Love is there when it sucks
its like sometimes love makes life difficult
but you have to hang in there
cause thats what loves about

its saturday
sitting here looking out my window
think i'll go outside
take a little walk and think about life
figure out what to do cause
i'm feeling a little isolated these days
cause everyone seems to be going away

please dont mute your heart
cause love cant get through
please dont mute your heart
cause love wont get through

so i walk around trying not to let it get me down
trying not to get discourged
by watching you fall away
but it dosen matter what i do or say
cause its not my choice to make
but its a choice we all have
everyday
we chose if we stick around when things
get hard or if we fade away
if we let love fade away

dont mute your heart
or love cant get through
dont mute your heart
or love cant get through
dont mute your heart
or love cant get through
from me to you

i miss you
cause my love cant get through to you
cause you've muted your heart
turned away
so i watch the rain come down
and think of you on saturday

System
By Jillian Ann

i've been awake for a long time
and i step out my door
and i look a all the people looking at me
and i see a bunch of empty eyes
and i talk to them sometimes
and they all tell me the same story over and over

they have so much pain from a broken
heart someone who ran away
or there not happy with the way they are living there life
and they keep going around in
circle in cycle but it never
really helps them at all

how long are we goign to feed a system
feed a system based on material things
thats replacing all our humanity
how long are we going to feed a system
feed a system that says love
should be out of need and not out want

how long are we going trying
keep on lying keep on crying
while our souls are dying
how long are we going to feed a system
based on material things
that killing humanity

everybody says
i just want to be want to be happy
i just want to make love i just want to be free
but we continue living in a sacrifice
feeding the system
feeding the system
based on material things
killing humanity

its really simple
to turn your life around
its really simple to find something real
a love that will last
that will not disapate
when the need fades away
its very simple
respect each other
do onto each other
as you would have
done to you

do not judge your brother
do not judge your sister
respect each other
do unto each other
as you would have done to you
its very simple to turn your life around
open your heart
and let the love come down

VapoUR
By Jillian Ann

i WAKE up this morning-wake up late
thankful to be alive
cause i have almost lost my life more then a few times
it seems no matter how i try- to stay near the light
i 'm always finding darkness-always seem to find myself
sometimes it covers me-in the darkness
feel like i am barely alive- barely breathing
walk down the stree- had a gun pointed in my face
feeling i've seen this place-and i wonder- somewhere in a dream- how did i get to this place-think i've been here before
i've been to a few dark places-looking for the light-chasing my dreams-chasing my dreams-
people look at me and say how could it be-how could you fall- dont waste your tiem trying to judge me-or critizime-cause i dont want to hear it - cause i'm not ashamed- cause i'll go wherever i need to go to follow my heart and soul: cause i'll go wherever i need to go to follow my heart and soul-follow my hear and soul

dont judge my life
untill you look me in the eyes
dont judge my life
untill you look me in the eyes
you dont know what i've been through
cause you didnt wear my shows
dont judge my life
till you look me in the eyes

its so easy-to judge each other- to point a finger at our brother- at one another- you dotn live my life- how can you know whats right for me-you know time is quickly passing by- why waste pointing fingers at each other- until my shoes you cant you -till you worn my shoes-you cant judge what i do- how can you judge what i do- till we wear there shoes we cant judge what they do-cause you never been here- in my skin- you've never been in there skin-cause i do what i do get by-i do what i do to survive- try to keep my eyes in the light to keep my soul alive-to keep my eyes in the light- to keep my soul alive-i know its easy to critisiz- easy to critiz to put each other down- but time is passing by- so why waste your time-why waste your life- why waste your life- why waste your time putting other people down

Little Space
BY Jillian ANn

how do you save
how can we make a diffrence today
the human race
how can we help the less fourtunet
how can you mend
how can you mend
all these broken hearts
how can we put together what was taken apart
how can we change
how can change
how can we rearrange
the way thigns are
the way things have become today

i think it all start
with the heart

open that little space inside
let the love come out tonight
open that little space inside
let the love come out tonight
cause the only thing we need to see
is more love amongst humanity
open that little space inside
let the love come out tonight

we all have our diffrences
and that will never change
we only have one life to live
why do we live to take
and not to give
we could kill each other
or learn to love one another
to love one another
cause we only have one life to live
so maybe we could learn how to give

Neverland
By Jillian Ann

Look at the stars
look at sea
look at the sky
when you need peace
look at the stars
look at the sea
look at the sky
when you feel empty

Heaven is here
just reach up and draw near
Heaven is here
just reach up and draw near
just reach up and draw near

When you feel weak
when you feel broken
when you feel hopeless
just remember
to look to the sky
lift your heart up high
cause then you'll see
all you need is already here

Heaven is here
just reach up and draw near
Heaven is here
just reach up and draw near
just reach up and draw near

Help Me
By Jillian Ann

Its monday
its raining again
i go outside
looking for a friend
but they silenced
the dreamers again
so i go home empty

help me
to be strong
help me to be stong
help me to go on
even when
everything seems to be going
wrong

I climb to my rooftop
i look out over the city
i 'm feeling kinda lonely
cause it seems everybodys
forgotten how to dream
so i look inside
for a little fire
to keep me alive

help me
to be strong
help me to be stong
help me to go on
even when
everything seems to be going
wrong

i woke up
the sun had come back again
and i looked at my life and i realized
i am going to feel empty
going to feel lonely
but thats a part of life
but it makes me alive
it keeps my deams on fire
its going to rain but the sun will come out again

help me
to be strong
help me to be stong
help me to go on
even when
everything seems to be going
wrong

Precious
By Jillian Ann

its three am
i hear the phone ring again
so i reach out and i let you in
i'm gonna be there to be there
to be yoru friend

you say that my love confuses you
because your only used to use used to abuse
but baby let me show you a diffrent way

precious baby
i know its difficult for you
to believe that i could love you
that i wont throw you away
precious baby
i know its difficult to believe
that love could be about more then need
precious baby
i wont thrown you away

i remember
the first time that i looked into your eyes
and i saw all the pain
that had gone before
because you gave your heart
to so many who just broke it apart
so you thought that
love could never be kind
that love would always leave you in time

but baby
maybe i'm here to show you
that love still can be true
be true
love can still be true

Higher
By Jillian Ann

I know how hard it is
to be awake these days
i know how hard it is
to walk around
with open eyes
i know what it feels like
to feel like your broken inside
i know how hard it is to
continue to stay alive
i know how hard it is to
keep your dreams in your sight
i know how hard it is
to try to live life
and not be
broken down
and not lose
all your dreams
and feel hopeless
and not feel worthless
i know what its like
the heart try to run away
because there so many things these days
that cause us pain
so now i say please dont give up
stay awake
i know how hard it is
to keep your eyes open
when you see whats going down
see the hate all around

i know how hard
it is to stay awake these days
so stay with me now
please dont let them take
your heart away
please stay awake
plese dont let them take your heart away
stay with me please

reconnect
by jillian ann

yesterday
i was fighting to remain
but today the darkness lifted away
and the sun came out
and drove the pain away
yesertday
i was fighting to stay
but then i let my heart lead the way
and all the darkness went away

somedays i feel so confused
sometimes i feel like i 'm losing the truth
but thats when i look deep inside
cause it seems to be where the ansewers hide
cause it seems to be where all the ansewers hide

reconnect to yourself
reconnect to yoru heart
dont let anybody keep you away
from your dreams today

hey baby everythign you need
is all inside of you
you just have to look to your heart and believe

the truth is simple baby
follow your heart
and all the darkness will
fade away

Grace
By Jillian Ann

Used to believe i was a lost cause
that there was no hope for me at all
cuase i was always hearing i had to obey
and no matter how i tried i could never walk that way
and thats when i learned
it had nothing to do with what they say

its grace that sets us free
not what we do or if we obey
its grace that sets us free
not what we do or if we obey
its grace

never be ashamed
cause it dosent matter what you do
its about faith
dont let them keep you away
God dosent care about if you obey
cause there no way we can walk
we can walk that way cause we are always going to fall
but its ok, but its ok cause not about what we do its about

grace

its grace that sets us free
not what we do or if we obey
its grace that sets us free
not what we do or if we obey
its grace

titleless
by jillian ann

this is my love to you
i hope some of it will get through

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i am an artist: trying to use art: to do something positive with it: i am very focused on creating: as well as learning: i spend most of my time either creating music: or writing i am working on a book for models: as well as keeping my journals and poetry and songs: i want to use my gifts to give back to humanity: through music: words: art: i suppose it is my way of trying to love my neighboor: i spend a lot of time in solitude with my keyboard microphone computers and books: if i am not doing that i am usually running meditating or walking: or talking: to people: or working with people to creat thing: i love creating so i made my life one big art project: so i never had to stop: so depending on the inspiration my creation changes: i create from the soul: so i also spend a lot of time digging searching taking in reflecting: the world is a mess and so oppossed to being part of the destruction i am doing my best to create as much as possible to fight against it: because as a kid i wanted to save the world: then i realized i couldent but i could do what i could do to give back: because in my theory i suppose the reason for the mass amounts of pain and destruction is because and i know i sound like a hippy there is not enough love: not enough giving: also i think it has something to do with the thought that everything from our educational system to our modern culture is based on mental and the material world : with little to no focus on the spiritual and the world of the soul: leaving people feeling fearful and unstable with lack of balance and or hope: causing mass destruction within lives homes nations : so i used to cry about it: i used to try to hide from it: i used to be afraid of it then i found the way i could fight it was to create and give back: so i suppose that is how i earned the title creat-a-holic. because it was the only way i could see a way to make a diffrence: cause i was like one against an army of all these people and media telling me to buy: buy: buy: consume: and then i found when i stoped living to get but to give life took on a new meaning a new reason to live a new way to fight so to speak: so i suppose my focus now is to live on as little as possible and create and give as much as possible also try to help other artist models and people with in the industry: cause i learned if you create or even live to please everyone else your never going to be happy: so i say follow your heart follow your soul and just go: so about spooning: i think that is an art form that needs to be in everyones life: cause it really is lovely to have it in mine: anyways so i suppose that if you where going to ask about me i would have to say that i would rather have nothing: be nothing and have peace: i struggle: i am emotional: but that is life and it is what makes it worth living: