Fall To God
i break apart
into a million parts
i feel like flying out my window
like playing games with suicide
what is causing this pain inside
i stop before i explode and i look inside to see what it is i hide
why do i feel all this pain in my heart
what is tearing me apart
then i see the truth i feel for i hurt you
i feel pain because of my decision
it was my sin
i went against what i knew was right
and i did what i shouldn’t do
but i did it because i felt
i wanted to
and now i pay the consequences
i only wanted to love
i only wanted to stop
and give my heart to someone
but i wanted it my way
and didn’t want to wait
and now i made a mess of it
and i still love
but can’t express it
so it burns in me
but it’s not them that hurt me
it was me and so now i still love and i can’t
turn it off
i wish i could be cold
i wish i could be numb
i wish i could forget like you
and turn and walk away
and never think about the love we shared yesterday
i refuse to believe
it was all a lie
i refuse to believe it can’t heal
i refuse to believe its over
i don’t believe in those words
i believe love continues on
just sometimes it gets too confusing
to intense
to much to handle
so we push it away
and run the other way
the shots in the dark rip through my heart
and i fall onto the floor
and i cry out to the God
who i hope still hears me
when i am confused
when i feel like
smashing my art
burning down the house
leaving the world
and turning to ashes
for i feel as i have been forgotten
and forsaken
but i know that’s not the truth
who is this lying to me
battle time i fall again i get up
i pray as i wipe the tears from my eyes
i will be strong
i will believe
i will go on
and i may fall down
but i will get up over and over
i will sin but i will
seek to change
i will hurt myself
and others but i will strive
to fight for the truth
and for the light
and my spirit is broken
but i will believe again
i will get up and go on
and listen to the choir of angels
i can’t see but i know is there for me
and i will continue on
even when i feel it is all wrong
and i want to fall apart
I will fall down
to my knees
and cry out
that God lets me see
the truth
so I can be free
i learn from my mistakes
so to continue to learn
i must continue to fall
this is how life seems to go Echelon
do you remember
the sun setting
next to the moon
in heaven where earth left me wandering
across the sky when visions left me to breath
in the beauty left covered in memories
blankets wrapping around me
in silent motion
stitching up broken hearts and torn emotions
together inside there is a reason why
the moon and the stars live in the sky
next to the moments which pass by
in surrender
dear God please watch over us
as we try not to fall
into the state of a million
temptations
please bless this moment with your energy
keep us safe and help us behave
we are two of your lost sheep
trying to find the way
please protect us from the darkness that lurks
take what could be a disaster and turn it into
something beautiful
take destruction flip it around into creation
in the name of God let all that is not of God
be cast out into the dark
away from us
as we come together
to sing to create
to pour our love
into something for your name sake.....
please send your angels down from heaven to
fill this room keep us safe and protect us from what we know
could be our doom
please help us to be strong and to remember you’re
the reason we are here
as i look into the eyes of
one of your children
help me to remember
i am looking at you
help the sun to shine down
and break through all the things which
could harm us or hold us down
keep us in your sanctuary
in this reality fill us with your spirit
light us on fire
let your desire
fill us and over come us
so we are not tempted to fall together
into sin
watch over your lost sheep give us strength
for we are weak
please God keep me from sin
cleanse my heart from deep within
this is my prayer
father
please hear my plea
as i call down on my knees
open my heart
lift it to the sky
youre the reason why