Don't Want to Dies Inside
change blows away
my conception
of reality
so hard not to get jaded
by all the hate and violence
i see all around me
please release me
from these things
i don't want to drown
in cynical
thought
i don't want the love to rot
away by my cold heart
i want to remain
open like a child
seeing the world like a child
believing in love
in the unseen
seeing the good in people
and not the bad
change me
don't let me
be caught up in this
twisted world where i feel
they try to suffocate my dreams
take me to the moon
let me climb to the sky
let me see the light
fall into my eyes
and lift me up to the light
i walk into the worlds unknown
i listen when i see them
kill each other
i try not to let it make me angry
rather i remember we are all
lost in ways
in the city with concrete
that suffocates me
that drowns out
the thoughts in my head
replaced with things i should buy
words they say i should say
re-evaluation
this is not a world
without hope, beauty or salvation
it is just a state of our mind
a mind which we either open or close
to the murmurs
of the soul
that speak in tongues
like the signs of the skies
that fall into the eyes of
babies
when they smile
and i try not to get cynical
not to get to depressed
not to end up only living for
coffee and cigarettes
although some days
it seems to be my way
of wiring my mind
to stay in the times
i walk the streets
i long for the beach
i am here
because it is where i need to be
to reach
i can't get to cynical
to cold at heart
when i see people die
i want to cry
when i see people fight
i want to try
to step in
to intervene
when i see a broken heart
i want to be compelled to love
and to give
not to turn away
and say it's not my problem
when i see a broken child
i want to give it love
like a mother
when i see a man who feels
no one will ever love him
i want to love him
till the end
when i see an old man starving
i want to reach out a give a hand
when i see people on TV
killing and harming
i want to turn it off
i don't want to be numb
i don't want to die inside
i want to stay alive
but it's hard sometimes
i don't want to play dumb
i don't want to go numb
i want to see the truth
even if it makes me
fall to my knees
tears open my heart
and makes me bleed for everyone
besides me
i don't want to lose my soul
or my ability to feel
i don't want to turn cold to the cries
of the babies
and the homeless
the fallen and the broken
i want to stay here
i want to stay awake
i don't want to get caught in
living for empty things
like big cars and diamond rings
i want to keep my soul in tune
so i rip out my eyes
i rip out my hands
i give them to the Divine
when i see something
taking control of me
i try to push it away
try to keep it at bay
i can't be consumed
i can't be always amused
by the pain of others
so i turn away
i turn away
i keep pulling away
keep turning away