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I am smoking my last ciggaret

a bad girl in a fucked up world

sitting on the window sill

smelling the smoke

taking a trip back

and the little girl survived

somehow

but the pain tears me down

 

i am not happy this way

the rivers relapse in my head

i twist inside

i colapse

relapse

i colpse

in a relapse

my lungs are filling up

i cant ever seem to be good enough

 

i am fighting

to walk a line

to do whats right

and i fell again

for years and years i said i didnt care

said i would never go there

 

now i am caught in the headlights

and i cant cover my mistakes up

and i cant undo whats done, so i move on

 

 

i am not happy this way

the rivers relapse in my head

i twist inside

i colapse

relapse

i colpse

in a relapse

my lungs are filling up

i cant ever seem to be good enough

 

these smoke chained circles are covering up my hands

the memorys are holding my head

so i am going to take  shower

wash away my sins

close the door

wash away my sins

and pray for hours

 

next door there is a cathedreal

got to look for somewhere safe now

i cant go home, so i have to make my own

 

 

i am not happy this way

the rivers relapse in my head

i twist inside

i colapse

relapse

i colpse

in a relapse

my lungs are filling up

i cant ever seem to be good enough